Pretending to be normal is exhausting. This week has been a pretty bad one for that. Sleep deprivation just adds to the problem. I know that I should be grateful, my stress is NOTHING compared to what some people are dealing with right now - I am not mourning a very fresh loss of a spouse or child. I am not engaged in battle on a foreign shore. I am not waiting for that dreadful phone call/visit from the military telling me my spouse didn't survive the battle. I am not struggling to have enough to eat, or a roof over my head, or a job. I am incredibly, incredibly, blessed. Knowing this just adds some guilt to the mix, though.
Does that ever happen with you? You're feeling down, and you're not entirely sure why, but then you feel even worse because you feel guilty for feeling down in the first place because you know that you really don't have anything about which to feel down....it's a vicious cycle. It's also exhausting.
As I get ready to go to bed tonight, here are my thoughts and wishes for you: may this holiday season not wear you out. May your loved ones arrive at their destinations safely with no hassles. May your health improve. May you have a day to just be you.
Thank you for reading....